okay so once a month I am going to do a big topic and todays is something very close to me that I have not spoken to anyone about at all really. Bullying.
All my life I have been judged and edited and most importantly bullied as I am sure we can all relate too. I am going to tell you the feelings you will feel and how to work around them as well as the actions you must take.
1. Ashamed- This was the number one thing for me. I felt like because of my age I could not be bullied and should not be. I felt stupid if I said anything. I bottled it up. If i could go back I would of told someone.I would of written it down but sometimes its too hard to confess to something that makes you feel so little.
2. scared- You feel scared to be around the person or people who do it. You feel scared to tell anyone because of the abuse you feel afterwards. Its okay though do what is best for you. Do not listen to others make yourself happy.
3. move on- As simple as it sounds its not easy and its pretty darn scary to do so but moving on from what happened no matter the time will be the ultimate thing to do.Write the things that hurt you the most and in the future you can see what helped you through it all.
4. use your voice- You have a voice and try and use it. tell them what you think. Tell someone whats happening. your never alone. It feels like it and it makes you feel alone but its the best thing to do and will honestly make you feel so much better.
5. strength- Use your inner strength to get through it. Think its okay you will be fine there could be worse things. You are not alone.
If you can take yourself out of the situation. Although I felt I should not of needed to do this .. I quit my job because of it and I loved it. However I did not want the constent thoughts of sadness and like I had a wasted life. I did not and nor do you. If you or anyone else is affected by bullying let them know people can help and most importantly do not fear the bully because thats what they want.
I know I can not really help but these are my views. I love you all so much,
stay safe ,
soap xoxox
